I don’t want to write.  I haven’t wanted to write since my last post.  But the thought of leaving this page so stagnate has been nagging at me since then.  I mean seriously nagging at me.  The longer I’ve put off writing for whatever reason, the more I think about how terrible of a blogger I am.  This blog was an exciting new journey for me and over the course of a few weeks, it’s become another one of my unfinished projects.  It’s become something I dread thinking about because I dwell on my inactivity when the more efficient choice would have been to shut up and write.

Lady Lesson # 16: Close Your Apps!

Before I sat down to write this, I was pacing around my room debating whether or not I wanted to.  “I don’t have anything to write about”.  “My readers have lost interest”.  “I’ve missed the blog boat and it ain’t turning around this time!”  I came up with a million excuses as to why I couldn’t do it.  Funnily enough, none of them really meant anything and I ultimately decided to just sit down and write.

It is easy, and I mean really easy to make up reasons for not doing something.  Hell, I make up reasons why I can’t cook dinner.  “Well, all of the forks have disappeared and pizza is the only thing that doesn’t require silverware!”  True story.  I will sit there and talk myself out of anything, especially if it inconveniences me or worse, takes me out of my comfort zone.  Where’s the life in that?  

So now that I’ve talked myself out of anything ranging from putting in a service request for my shower that has no water pressure to calling back my new friend I promised to grab drinks with, where am I?  I’m worried.  I’m thinking “I should do blah blah”.  I’m dirty and lonely, at least in this case.  My mind is cluttered with what a friend of mine refers to as programs.  Think of an iPhone.  If you don’t close each application when you’re done it’ll keep running and eventually your camera stops taking pictures because there isn’t enough space.  We’ve all been there.  Each task I put off, no matter how small, is another program running in the background, slowing down my processing speed.

The solution, which I’m still adjusting to, is to just get things done.  The more I put them off, the more cluttered I am and the less efficiently I work.  The tasks I debate the most about are the ones that need the most attention.  Getting back into writing has been a big one for me.  I put it off and put it off and made excuses until I got to this stressed, fearful point.  Writing this blog is something I really do enjoy.  If tasks I enjoy put me in a stressful place, imagine how cluttered I must be with the things I really don’t want to do.  

Get it done.  If it’s something you’re trying hard to talk yourself out of but it still nags at you, then that’s the thing that needs to be finished ASAP.  Close the programs, clear your head!  Is this my favorite blog post?  Not necessarily, but I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders for jumping back in here, knowing the next time will be easier.  

Welcome back!

-Jadey Lady